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I Don't Want To—

I Don't Want To—


I don’t want to

Love you, for

Such hopes feel akin to madness,

A fear that winds around me, tightly.

You shall never return this love,

I fear it in my bones—


I don't want to

Love you, knowing

The fear does reside in my breast,

A stone that whispers uncertainty;

You’ll never love me, having lying eyes—


I don’t want to

Love you, my dear.

I don’t want to

Peer into the depths of your eyes,

Where shadows linger in the eclipse of us,

Becoming lost in that expansive sweet unknown.


I don’t want to

Love you, but oh!

I catch my breath in moments we share,

As the breeze wraps 'round me, tenderly,

When you brush by—so close, yet so far.


I don't want to

Love with a fervor

That drags me deeper,

Into the storm of yearning,

Far from the shores of sanity,

All for you—


I don't want to

Love you,

Fearing you’ll not,

Still, the rawness echoes—

Reverberating in the silence of my soul.


Love me! I tread this as truth—

Doodles of names,

Fill the margins of pages,

Filling the story of this longing life,

Where I wander, trapped in thought's embrace,

Imagining you and I, a quiet reverie.


I don’t want to

Love you; help!

In the sleepless midnights,

Tossing and turning,

Each dream, a sketch of your phantom—


Yet, I do, love you—

And it terrifies me,

As nights unfurl, I lay awake,

Vivid dreams dance like fireflies,

Illuminating the dark with visions of you.

I dare not escape them.


I don’t want to

Love you, but—

The truth is written on my parchment skin,

I do, and shall not cease–

For your aura is a beacon


In my efforts to run, I found

Home within your gaze, and hope

That drowns the cruelness of my world.

So tell me,

Whisper the words that my heart longs to hear,

“I love you, even in fear.”

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